I'm noticing that I feel a lot better right now if I can see small, quantifiable successes. Large, long term goals are not happening for me. I'm a little too ADD and distracted right now. That's okay. I can adapt. Tonight I cast on that beanie in Noro Silk Garden that everyone is knitting. It's cold in HumCo and my dad's birthday is coming up. Got it sorted on #6 dpns and I finished the 1" of ribbing on the edge while the youngest and I watched Love Actually. Last night I turned the heel on the 2nd Baud sock while we watched Margaret Cho. Small goals. Small successes. I can see them. Measure them. Beginning, middle, end. They make me feel a little more in control of things. That helps. I might be able to finish Baud and/or the beannie by the weekend. Probably not both. But I can finish one. It's going to feel great to FINISH something.
My little experiment with the plastic bin was a smashing HUGE success, though I now have to prevent myself from driving to Target and buying organizational doodads for EVERY! ROOM! IN! MY! HOUSE! as it is a known fact that this way lies madness and also bounced checks. I want to organize or get rid of EVERYTHING, it seems. I've filled my car and been to Goodwill three times. I've filled our dumpster once and half again. I am a purging fiend. But the things that are left? I can find them. I know where they are. Chaos has been contained and I can sleep at night. I am so OCD in this regard that it is rather pathetic sometimes, really. Life crisis? Husband moves out? Youngest child sick and home from school for 3 days? Teenage daughter met a totally unsuitable boy and gets caught lying about where she's at after school resulting in her grounding and your being trapped in the house with a sulky, pissed off 15 y/o? Dog yakked on the new bedspread? No problem. Buy a plastic bin and spend two days organizing your paperclips. Don't eat, or you know, shower, but sort the sock yarn by color, in ziplock bags. It works! Cheaper than therapy. Unless you're a dork and hit Target or god forbid, The Container Store. Then it's expensive therapy and not applicable to deductible or yearly out of pocket for healthcare.
Right. Beannie or Baud, done by Sunday. I think I can do it.