I haven't had much time to knit this week. Really just been throwing in a row here or there on the Icarus shawl whenever I have a chance to sit down for ten minutes.
Spending a lot of time thinking about life and living it every day. Thinking about ways I can be a better friend and a better person in general. Thinking about ways I've failed to do that. Trying not to dwell there so much, but just keep moving forward towards the person I would really like to be on a regular basis. I've spent a lot of time dancing this week. Dancing, for me, is about as close as I can get to whatever passes for God, without actually touching. And I've had a pressing need to be close to that, so dancing it is.
Reconnecting with my kids has been good, though I sent a little girl away to camp and got back a pre-teen in a BIG way, inches taller, boobs, and wearing tinted lip gloss. Such a pretty girl. But where's my baby? So-chan did indeed shave the head, but fortunately there's a hawk and some chelsea bangs so if I look at her head on and squint, I can pretend there's actually regular hair. I hate to say it? But she's a really cute punk chick and looks GREAT in a hawk. So I'm adjusting okay.
I wanted to say congratulations to my friend Inky on her new home! And though I'm really behind on bloglines, I'm catching up slowly.
I wanted to say something else. You matter. You, reading this blog. Person I may have never met before. You totally matter to someone and more someones than you think. Don't ever forget it. When things get dark and horrible, you have to hang on to that. Don't forget. The hole that someone leaves behind when they lose sight of that is bigger and more painful than you can imagine. You matter.